Just a quick update

I called the collection dept. of WMC today and was told they cant take a payoff using a check over the phone. (odd most places can do that much like an echeck online) so I xfered the $400 needed to payoff Jeffs judgment from our Money market acct to the bank (that’ll take prolly 3 days so next wed it’ll get there). Nobody is willing to consider renting to us (so we can get out of the anti-animal apartment we’re in) and definitally wont consider giving us a mortgage. I also sent copies of the notice of satisfaction, for the OTHER judgment we’ve already paid off-back in MAY and it’s still showing unpaid, to the credit agencies to take care of that. We’ve been trying to save but that savings isn’t helping if we cant use it to get a new place so that seemed the best course of action right now. Atleast if the landlord lady pops in and says we have to leave then we can more easily get a place….ok not easily considering the animals but the finances wont be the problem. Jeff has been working from last week, through the weekend and is planning on working through till NEXT sunday everyday. Poor man….the tools that disappeared off the van are being taken out of his check $50 a week which doesn’t sound like much but considering rent, van, and debt consolidation all in the first two weeks of the month it adds up quickly. I think either tomorrow or (more likely) next monday I’ll be taking in another load of copper so yay for play monies-jeff will get tools he wants and I’ll get…not sure yet, I found a nice 65pc white and silver edged china set I want. Looks just like the one my mom has except it comes with a serving platter-moms was broken a few years ago during a move. Otherwise I’ll be getting my usual body jewelry-plenty of stuff there. OOOH, dinner is going to be shepards pie tonight. 99% fat free turkey burger, tomato, onion, a GIANT clove of garlic, onion, corn and worshestire sauce and soy sauce. Then on top mashed potatos. yay for country food!….healthy country food.

Long awaited update!

This family site is soon going to be moved to a different server, and revamped. Hopefully it’ll be much nicer after the move and I’ll be keeping the fun updates coming. We’re upgrading to DSL so actually keeping update will be less strenuous.

DE FOOT

i didn’t check my email yesterday-333 (so far) in my junk folder, WTH?! Oh yea recently asked why is there so much profanity in my online ’stuff’ but I dont really cuss that much IRL….BECAUSE I CANT cuss that much IRL-w/ 2 kids 1 who repeats anything she shouldnt so instead I get all my need for such foul language out on here. Profanity is the crutch of inarticulate motherfuckers. HA! I love that one….annnnyway I got my foot tattooed yesterday. OUCHIE, but not as bad as I was expecting. Dont get me wrong it hurt like a bitch but I’m really wanting my other one done now so you know it wasn’t that bad. It looks awsome too, lily was so amazed that she had to get her foot tattooed-so out came the sharpies. lol, ‘look mommy i got my foot tattooed like you’. so adorable. After I got home I put my foot up as per instructions, it got puffy later on last night. Gooped it this morning-tattoo goo just fyi and it’s happy. Yesterday I was up made breakfast and had gotten a shower, completely ready to walk out the door at 9am yesterday but my appt wasn’t till 11. I was so nervous from everyone who heard about my upcoming tattoo, ‘omg it’s going to hurt so bad, etc etc’. Ummmm….now jeff is antsy wanting a tattoo. but he’s going to wait a bit, I feel like that would be stretching funds to tight and nope that’s not allowed to happen. Most people choose to pay off debit and THEN build credit or vice versa but nooooo, i have to do it all at the same time in as little time as possible. I guess to make up for all the time and money we wasted instead of taking care of it before. It’s working well so far but we have to stick to our budget or else it’ll get screwed up like it has so many times before. I think one of the guys jeff got hired onto the company is about to loose his job. he’s been in the trade for 6 or so years and he’s pissed because jeff has only been doing it 2yrs but jeff is incharge. He thinks because of his ‘experiance’ the superviors should go to him and he should have the van and all that. But he KNEW when he was hired thats how things were going to be. Anyway today he didn’t come into work he hurt his back last night supposedly. I mean it’s very likely that he did-trip on his daughters toy and fall down the stairs even though it wasnt bad enough to go to the hospital-but he is ’sick’ 2 or 3 days a week. he goes to work but doesn’t work to what jeff and THE BOSS know hes capable. Kinda shitty but thats how things work sometimes. Jeffs parents are coming into town next week, we’re going to the zoo and such fun things w/ them. Lily is really excited, i’m nervous-I love ‘em both to death but usually the first day is kinda awkward, dont really know what to talk to them about. I’m sure once we move out closer to them that’ll go away as I spend more time with ‘em. I think in the soon to be 4 yrs we’ve been married I’ve spent a total of 3 wks with them? give or take a few days of course. I think we’re going to FL sometime this summer too-jeffs grandma has alzheimers, in the last year it’s gotten worse and he’s really scared he might not get a chance to see her again. She forgets lily’s name and age and usually doesn’t even remember we’ve had serenity. She’s such a sweetie and his grandpa too. I dunno I feel completely comfortable with them, it’s weird people close to my age or OLDER people I’m good around it’s that parent age kinda feel strange with. ok i gotta get back to my cleaning this was just a break to check the bank and post about my so much cuter foot. oh and an updated kids piggy bank balance as of this morning-$94.89

I really should keep up on my journals

I have an appointment this sunday for my late mothers day gift. I’m getting a tattoo on the top of my foot of a lily flower and a black figure sitting in a lotus position on the flower to represent both girls. Offically using bank of america, just since the beginning of the month I’ve ’saved’ 4.66 to be added to the girls savings account I have with the bank. It’s a pain in the butt because I have to cash jeffs checks at the old bank so we dont have a hold on the money. Oh well I still have the xmas club there so I can just make a deposit to that fund when I cash it. 1st bank is only a mile from bank of america anyway so it’s not such a big inconvenience. We tried to take the girls to the george washington national forest on sunday but the rain put a hold on that. we did make it to mountain mystic trading in front royal. we havent been there since before the girls were born, amazing-or not so amazing the man working remembered us. The car has been doing fairly well-has the occassional hiccup, but overal still running. Had some serious badness on tuesday when serenitys doc appointment was. It was having issues staying running and just as I was about to give up and call to say we couldn’t make it I thought-one more time and ta da worked out fine. Poor jeffie has worked 60hrs this week including today. He’s gotten to the point of leading jobs where he does a lot of driving though so it’s not so physically demanding. he complains about having to get into the work then stop go somewhere take care of something and head back to another site and get back into the work, but i do think he’s enjoying having his own van, and being a lead man. He was recommended for a $2 raise so hopefully in the next month he’ll be getting 14.50 an hour and then of course another one once he gets the journeymans license-that’ll be almost a year off though. He’s working hard, being a great husband…we both need to work on spending more *quality* time with the girls. They get plenty of attention but not the kind I want them to have. I think we need more FAMILY art evenings, and outdoor trips-like to the forest-more walking through town, museums, etc. Jeff has been so focused on work, school, and the kids that he’s neglected his art so i’m going to have to get on him about that. Sometimes I feel like quiite the b*tch because I have to keep on him with the complaining and such. He and I both know it’s just to make sure things run smooth with our life and i’m doing whats best. Example, he has his own debit card for the bank acct now. Not 2 years ago there is no way I would’ve let him do this because I didn’t trust his maturity to handle the responsability and fully expected him to just buy stuff and end up overdrawing the acct. He has a better understanding and acceptance of what has to be done to get what we want later in life. He’s grown up so much since the girls have been born. HAHA I was going to try and surprise him with star wars books for xmas but because of my hate for anything remotely a lie or witholding information I couldn’t keep it in-I felt horrible, like I was lying to him because really to get these books I’d have to spend money and then to keep it a surprise I’d have to lie about where the money went so yea out it came which he’s excited about of course. I had to go drive the car around last night-just to be sure it’s still running smooth for sunday when I go to winchester for the tattoo. There is no way I want to miss the appt so I’m all nervous about the car screwing up. I’ve wanted this tattoo for awhile and now it’s set and all-I’d better get it done. Oh yea jeff learned what happens when you try to cram for tests and get exams doen quick-your grade drops. He did 3 books and 3 exams in 2 days got 95.92. and 80 -these arent bad grades really but he wants to keep his average high (doubt the average matters, so long as you pass u can take that journeymans exam) it’s a personal goal. also squeaker is sitting up on her own for short periods of time-then falls over LOL but shes trying and her hand is getting better too. she still wont put it on the floor to crawl but it’ll be better soon, babies heal quick and the doc didn’t get crazed about it.

oops-been awhile

whats happened hmm, well lily is offically using her big girl potty. not every time but it’s getting better-she nows wears her actual pantis instead of pullups quite often. squeaker is working on her crawling, not quite there but working on it. i sold a painting to a girl on my punkymoms forums-she inspired the painting so yay. my mothers day was ruined-then i got flowers the next day which made it better. i feel the need to up my nostril to it’s 8g then get the other side up to the 10. we’ve decided not to visit jeffs parents this summer so we can save more money for moving. have gotten $100 more into the money market accoutn for said moving. we’re workin on it. jeff got his school package and taken his first exam. he’s really excited about it and so am i. once hes done i’m taking my art course from the same people. cant wait, i’ll have to double up his payments to get it paid off in time of him finishing it. work is going good for him, lots of hours, lots of pay. bad news is he’s been having some bad back pain lately, i set up a doc. appointment for him this thursday to hopefully get some pain pills to help. i’ve been trying to get him to give yoga a chance-never know it could actually help. i think so anyway. still waiting on that secured credit card. they took the money out of the account but still say the application is in review so i got the number for jeff to call if he makes it home in time tonight. lilys piggy bank is getting quite hefty. any time we have $1 bills or any change into the pig it goes. i put 7 cash and i’m atleast 2 dollars in coins in there last week. i’d really like to switch to bank of america because of their keep the change program. it’d be a good way to help keep the kids savings going strong. we have the money market account for our adult savings needs and then just make a seperate savings and use it as their account which would get all the extra change. jeff and i have been putting out a lot of art work-actually today i need to get some more uploaded. he had planned on having a ‘gallery’ unveiling on sunday but due to the day being so terrible that didn’t happen. i have to get more of mine onto the camera then online. also still need to link the posting onto the family page. i’m so proud of jeffs career course he’s working on. he’s putting a lot of effort into it, and really making it worth the money. i was a bit leary thinking it would be a complete waste and he’d just let it sit and not finish but seems to be getting done. i did something sort of bad….i ordered jeff a book for his birthday which isn’t till september but its limited to 2000 printings. book cost $87 after the s&h. and i put it on the credit card. i know we’re trying to pay it off but i wanted to make sure he got that book. it’s nice and he may not have a second chance. for fathers day i plan on getting him ear weights but those can be gotten any time-if the ones planed arent available then there is always a different style. I found the funniest thing which i’ll post in a min, so actually you’ll get it read it before reading this, hope it was enjoyed? ok all for now i guess

I forgot to mention!

serenity rolled over 3x yesterday…and quite a bit last night, which meant mommy up and down to flip her back over cause she was fussing…guess bored being awake and in there

quick updates

Jeff has signed up for a distance learning course to be an electrician. He’s already worked in the trade for an year and a half so in another 6 months he’ll have completed the requirement for in the field traning and due to the knowledge he’s learned he’ll probably finish the course in the same time and with those two requirements he’ll be able to take a test and if he passes (no doubt he will) get a journey mans license. After having that for a year he can take a different test and become a master. Yet another year of having a masters license and he’ll be eligable for a contractors license when he can finally work for himself. Great news. Also on my side after his course is complete I will be taking an artist course through the same career school-penn foster. Thats for my own benefit really-i dont think it’ll help me financially but personal improvement. Then I believe jeff will be taking another course, carpentry possibly. Also he has be signed up for a secured credit card (by me) so we can work on getting his credit improved. Hopefully. Oh and there have been more photos added to the webpage if your interested in checking them out. The webpage was upgraded to remove all the banners.

random gibberish

bring me to life song-dedicated to jeff

how can you see into my eyes like open doors leading you down into my core where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m withoutyou can’t just leave me breathe into me and make me realbring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can’t believe I couldn’t see kept in the dark but you were there in front of me I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything without a thought without a voice without a soul don’t let me die here there must be something more bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

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Why is this song for him? because when we met I was a $50-$70 a day heroin junkie. Thats where the credit debt came from. I keep myself surrounded by ‘friends’ who really didn’t give a d@m* about ME-as a person, they were there for the drugs and just to be out somewhere instead of alone, the same as me. It was a convenient situation for us all and I was getting worse. I’d almost died (dropped out) twice by that time, I thought they cared but really I know it was more they would’ve left me there if they couldn’t wake me up, if meant them not getting involved w/ cops. By then my emotions were for the most part dead-thats the way i wanted it, I didn’t want to feel anymore. Those who were there, you remember what I was like back then and how much I’ve changed.

 We had been hung out w/ the same people at the same places and run into each other a few times-living in the same town but we didn’t really meet until after I was 18-good because nothing would’ve happened between us until then. We were both always right there so close yet not knowing each other-ironic. Sounds like a pity part doesnt it-far from it, I really enjoyed that life, I realize it was utterly stupid now but I dont regret it-i dont regret anything because I like who i am today and if anything about my past changed so would i.

 

I need one egg
Current mood: blah

ROTFLMAO this is what lily just told me, she does this of course when she wants me to cook her an egg, but any time i go out she’s already gotten an egg out of the fridge and laid it on the stove for me. she has to make sure i understand 1 egg, holds up her index finger and says it. so cute….now i have to go make an egg, i’ll finish this in a minute, or when shes gotten her egg.

ok egg cook and being devoured-lily is also watching a leapfrog dvd about words. shes having problems learning tradititional sit down at the table and do worksheets type of learning so we’re getting many educational dvds. she learns a lot from watching tv-she can tell u what damn near any animal is and most of the sounds they make, thank u animal planet (and daddy for teaching her specific snakes and lizards-she also helps him feed the veggi eaters). yay owe 113. on the cc-that cleared so now when disney refunds the 26 i’ll finish paying it off. apparently bank of america is having problems w/ its secure cc application so i think we’re going to have to go up to the branch office and actually do that rather than by mail. whatever so long as it gets done. oh good, the transfer finally took between the savings and the money market acct. I’ve decided on the art degree from penn foster also. i’ve  taken the classes for 6 years at school and and after school and oh yea! during the summer so why not get some paper that says ’shes an artist’.

Could I be any more excited? NO!

Today I check the mail-we get our amended return, and jeffs sign up packet for penn foster school by mail to get an electrician diploma. What does this all mean for us, and why am I excited? Well the amended return is going to pay off our credit card, fix the car so we can go visit family in St. Louis this summer. Also it’ll be used to open an acct with bank of america for jeff so he can have a secure credit card-to help up his credit score. With this secure card I will be getting my tattoo, then pay that off and we’re going to set up jeffs class (penn foster) to charge that card automatically. That way there is constant activity on the account and it’ll actually save a bit of money-about sixty dollars). The penn foster class will be finished quickly since he knows most of the information they’ll be teaching just from his work experiance. He’ll need 2 years (done that) and 240hr class (thats the entire penn foster course) so as soon as he’s finished the program he can go get a journey mans license and a year after that he can take a test and get a masters. Once he’s done with his classes, I’m thinking I’d like to get a degree in something, possibly either art or psychology. Not sure about that. I really like the idea of school by mail. Having that little piece of paper will make him worth a lot more money to companies. He’s really excited about getting that paper, I’ve also done the reasearch for him on requirements, payments, etc etc….basically I’ve done it all and now all he has to do is the school work so that should be simple enough. I think things are finally starting to look up for us, getting straightened out and taking necessary steps to make life better.

oucie

I stretched ONE of my nostrils up yesterday-accidentally went up 2 gauges instead of just 1. I had a plug but the grooves were too deep to put through a fresh stretch so I had to only upside the right side and put in a ring thats missing a ball-yea. I’ve really been in a mood to create art-and buy art supplies!-last night I used an old baby formula can to create a brush holder-glued bits of glass and mirror onto the outside and ‘ghetto grouted’ it using the hotglue gun and the painting over it. Looks….interesting. I opened a money market savings account in Jeffs name too-YAY, that is for moving. I’m making green pepper (flavor only) chicken and cheese tortellini

Entry part 2-april 23.

I never did get around to posting that-or finishing it the other day. busy around here-added to stress of trying and successfully getting all the animals back home again. I think i have to reteach lily that emmy (the cat) is NOT her toy and she cant roll on him! not much going on-thrilled still that jeff is back to work and excited for this first untaxed check-along with his last unemployment check from last week which should get here sometime at the end of this week. yea really keep up with that dont they, oh well it was helpfull so i cant complain-too much I found out my grandmother (dads side) broke her hip and is in the hospital. I feel bad for her but dont plan on visiting. I dont really associate with that side of the family anymore-nothing personal really they’re nice people just dont have anything in common with them and the feeling seems to be mutual. I dont agree with society’s idea that you have to love/care about ‘ biological family’. To me family is a person/group of people who have meaning for you, that make you feel special and loved not just some person who is related to you because so and so had sex and then these other two people did and ooh look you have somewhat similar dna. who cares. My ‘freaks’ in school were my family, not one was related to me but i felt more of a kinship with them than i did with people who are genetically related to me.  Jeff and lily are watching wrestling right now, squeaker is in bed, and i’m typing this before i also go to bed. OOOH I made great pizza for dinner, jeffs half was pinapple, moza chz and alfredo sauce. I had spinach, mushrooms, moza chz, minced onions and alfredo sauce. I’d ‘made’ the dough using the mix package but added in garlic powder, basil and oregano-it was the BEST one i’ve made so far which says a lot cause I make a pizza atleast once a month. Also ms. ren seems to be getting close to saying-something. she’s become very ‘mouthy’ lately. I recorded a 3min video on my phone so jeff could see it when he got home-wonder if i can get it to the computer using bluetooth. Have to try that at some point.